“I’m so sick of facing the world alone,” says the Moon. 

Someone had told me that I was strong enough  to not need anybody. But that person was wrong. I do need someone. Especially now. What’s stopping me, though? What’s stopping me is that I’m scared of facing the consequences of my sheer stupidity. And I don’t wanna drag anyone down with me.  I’m too much of a coward to seek help. Like all my problems should just be kept inside and not to bother others for I know they’ve got lots of better things to  do than ail me in my pain. I act like it’s not a big deal, but to me it was. Big enough for me to spend my tears upon. Someone would probably say my reason is  too shallow. Yet who can blame me when every mistake I make, I go too hard on myself? I easily lose faith  in all the goodness in me just because of my flaws and bruises. 

I’m sick of crying silently. I’m sick of secrets that explode like a time-bomb in the end and there are casualties. I’m sick of facing the world alone. I’m sick of being lonely Moon.

Have you ever thought once, “How can I be my best when everyone else always seems to be better than me?” And then you tell yourself to stop comparing… but you continue to do so anyway, for you think that you need to compare in order to see if you’ve improved or not.

Well, here’s the mistake—the only one you should be comparing yourself with was the person you used to be. Not some person who had gone entirely different things than you. You should be asking yourself this: “What/Who was I today? What/Who was I yesterday and what/who will I become tomorrow?” (Credits to my friend Lexie for that quote up there.) 

Remember that you measure your own growth by your own centimeters, and not somebody else’s.

There’s this thing called “inferiority complex”. If you have no idea what this is about, then Google it. If you do know, then congratulations. 

When you’re usually with people who appear thinner, prettier, smarter, more popular, richer, or happier, you feel a certain kind of insecurity. Most people let this eat them away inside until all that’s left of them are shivering knees. It makes them fail even more. Sinking them to an even lower level than the people who seem “better”. But you know, you could backfire this insecurity for your own good. 

You must always think of it as a challenge: to try to reach other people’s superiority. Others call it competitiveness. I call it aspiration. So strive to be even better than you are. Learn a new language. Travel. “It pays to know more than one thing well,” says a Professor from Silliman University. He even says that the goals he wanted to accomplish at age 35, he accomplished all at 27! It IS possible. Set your sights on something, set it high enough to reach and not low enough to stoop. 

The future is one blank. All the pencils are already handed to you. Write with crayons! Paint a picture both realistic yet beautiful. Hang it above the mental wall of your mind. Focus on it like you focus on the fruit magnets on your refrigerator. Believe, persevere, and make it an image not only from your fantasy, but of immediate reality. 

Sometimes when I talk to people, I try to coax out their story.  Sometimes, I really want to see the real them. I want to know what’s keeping them down, how they deal with the loneliness and the sadness and bitterness that pretty much everyone in the world feels. Because whenever I find out a piece of the stories they put together through time, I realize that we’re all part of the same big picture. We’re all the same. We all think nobody understands us. We all think that we’d rather be alone than grow too attached to someone who’ll only leave us in the end. We all have fears. We all have pain. We all had love that we didn’t speak anymore for the fear of bringing out the pain in the open once again, like reopening an old wound. We all have stories. 

Maybe you’re one in a million. But face these facts: there are billions of people in this world, which means you’re not as special as you think you are. You are just like me—one of the millions. You feel frustrated when things go wrong. You feel like someone else’s life is better than you. You feel that you’re stuck in an island with no one to cook smores with or stargaze in the bare sand, or take you away in a boat. You feel that once you find love, you’ll be happy. And then life takes you on twists and turns to prove to you that you won’t. Not all the time, anyway.  

We’re all lonely. We’re lonely because we are plagued with apathy. We all want someone to  sympathize and empathize with our miseries. We want someone to care us. We want someone to carry our loads with us that we forget they also have their burdens to shoulder. But no one ever lends a hand because they’re just as apathetic as you are with them. You feel lonely in a crowd of people. You feel lonely when you’re in the corner while everyone around you laughs with glee. Now put yourself in their shoes. Tap dance in them. They may be laughing outside yet inside they’re rotting like the remains of a burnt log in the base of a mountain. Sounds familiar? Well, you may have gone through some different shit over the past years but everyone feels this way. We hide behind smiles. We fake smiles to support someone else’s fake happiness. All this pretending and asking “Are you ok?” out of politeness and saying “I’m fine” to avoid having to explain what you feel—it’s that line that draws us together in a full, perfect circle. 

We feel pain and we change from it. Sometimes that pain becomes a mistake, and yet we still learn from it. We isolate ourselves to comfort ourselves that we’re different from them, that we belong in the sidelines… in your perspective, there’s a lot of people in the dance floor. Friends you feel inferior to, the idols you look up to.  Have a peek inside everyone’s mind, and you’ll see their version of the list of people in the dance floor. You might even be one of them. In reality, though, the dance floor is absolutely empty. 

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The sometimes noisy and awkward you in person or the annoying nonsense person you are in the internet? It’s hard to judge from either personalities. :/